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article i read few months back.

A boy from a neighbourhood sec committed suicide thru sky diving. a guy whom his parent pamper the most, a guy who was describle to be a talented youth and a guy whom was well known in sec.it came out in newspaper striats time few months back 

"B" was an average looking guy and had an average grade in school. he got a gf.. and is devoted to her.  according to paper, B often went over to his gf house to play game/study and is being describle by his schoolmate to be a lovely couple in school.

There was one day, b gf suddenly ask for a break up.{ it was not mention in the paper to why she wanna break this r/ship}. B became devasted with life. he could not take those pressure and everything just did not go as smoothly for him. on next particular day, B went over to his gf place hopping she would give him a chance and start over again but however his gf insist of giving up on this r/ship. B could not control the pressure set upon him and threaten to jump down from the building but however it was stopped by the girl parent. the girl parent talk to him and advise him accordingly. thinking that B is in stable condition, they let B go back on his own without informing the cops or his family. B just couldnt overcome and jumped down right at the doorstep of his gf house

.!!! A life had gone……

B parent started to blame the girl parent for lettin his son went back home when he was not in stable state. i guess the girl must be feeling guilty now and definately it gonna stay with her for the rest of her life. she failed to understand how B is feeling, she failed to look at it seriously and she’s the only person who could stop this from happening. what a pity ~~~

i share this story with one of my frenz and she conclude it with " B is stupid to choose to end his life without thinking of his family".!! B might be selfish to end his life without thinking of his parent, but one thing we failed to look at is that B does everything for his gf.

"although he might be stupid to do so but  B is definately brave to end his life thru sky diving where not many ppl dare too" ..!!

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Human is strange. they tend to compare each other to make them a better person.it may sound good ,it sound be bad but somehow its more to mentally challanging by pressing pressure on yrself.

Who did not ever wish they got a million in the bank, who did not ever think of owning one sports car? who did not ever think of wanting a nice and understanding bf/gf before ?

What we want in future is depend on how we gonna work with it.

"What i have now is a planned i set yrs/months/days back ago. what i short of is currently under planning under review to achieve those and how much i lost is something i unexpected to happen" dont set me as yr target and no point cheating/lying to yrself just to get close or in line with me".

"no one is born to be perfect and no one is expected to be a perfect person in whole of their lifetime".

i do have my weakest link. i do have my strongest link. i got my 5.5senses to believe whats rite whats wrong, who telling lies, who not telling lies. who the good,who the bad. dont be surprise at time i do treat the person well when she/he used to treat me $%#$%#$# . reason behind– - -> i read his/her heart/mind.. @@

2005

i do mention 2005 was kind of my worst year in my life. eversince the starting of the year, im already struggling to preserve a complete puzzle …but it just keep left dangling….even till now, still pieces by pieces hoping to bring it back to how it use to look like.

keep rolling in mind "it take two hand to make a clap" —

im not a lonely…i do have friends. and Do have one good buddy/bro i know for yrsss and definately will be on my call if i need him. human do have stress and problem they faced . when they cant cope, they tend to talk to someone close to him just hoping that the someone might lighten his path. but somehow im not that type who share problem or giving direction to even if ur someone important in my life.

cope problem by yrself, dont let others decide yr path yr future- thats my way of living. everyone will passby all stage of life.. they can make me smile, they can make u sad, they can make u laugh, they can make you cry~~~!! i might be leading a downturn in life now but i still Preserve what i want ..and nv did i wan regret to ever occur in yr life.

training to be a better manz.

2003 -  bought seiko sports edition watch for $550

2004- bought n3bp levis jeans for $180

2005- ipod nano $348!!!!!!!!!

Sex is therapeutic . Physical intimacy is just as beneficial and pleasurable

horoscope for today

- You may get too involved in the affairs of those around you and it will be difficult to get yourself out when you have to.

Gonna stay at home avoiding those crowd this weekend. having rashes all over my face after swimming few days back. reddish stuff poping out .. not pimples and kinda itcy too.. arghh~~!!

will b boosting up my figure for the next two month. gonna start training and will consume back my mass gainer. definately will be a different man on dec!! determine to do so~~~!!

i guess i will be ditching this family and live independently by 2007.

never did i ever give a damn to ppl interfer my affair. Stubborn describle me..

nothing is impossible.. i might somehow suceed in life without depending on them.

by 2010yrs, i be driving subaru sti wrx….

and by 2015, i be driving rav4.. driving my wife ..my children..around !!

nothing interesting nothing exciting happen this week.. watch longest yard with karleen and yong yest.. nice show.. At first im like huh- wat show?? i was expecting to watch herbie as got lindsay lohan ( i tired rumour starting, i sick of being followed , im tired ppl lying saying what about me…- my favourite song "rumour") . aniway love that show after watching.. partly is because of my favourite wrestling star goldberg, stone cold, kelvin nash cast in the show too

–wondering how do those girls end up in a serious relationship when they spent weekly/monthly flirting when they club??

as for guys, i think .. .hmm hmm hmm .no comment.. im not an expert to that.. everyone are born differently…but i feel when guys reach a certain age, what they concern, what the want… is $$ and a family.!!!

Read paper- Some family are living as little as less than 1k amonth and they are still living happily.. looking back at myself now, how fortunate im .. they are struggling for a living while me.. is struggling for all those installment for comp, billz and car.. omgz !! aniway… those ppl deserve my envy. they might not be successful in earning, everyday struggling to earn more.. but at least they are successful in love.. they got a lady behind him supporting him waiting for him to come back after a hardday working.!! tats love….

A family need 4 hand to build.. i refer to both the husband and the wife.. they can only end up divorce when either of them give up. Some ppl after spenting yrs with this particular person , they find him/her bored and sick of him/her!! they will than think of every little excuse to find a way.. " DIVORCED" and seek for other love. nothing in this world is impossible as long as both parties giv in and take. To let go a relation/love/family is easy but to start of with another relation, is never an easy task!! dont u agree to it?? ppl might said - have the courage to let go and start all over again but how many person who actually did that?? somehow somewhere in the middle of the nite, memories just flash back.!!isnt it consider cheating danz???

Love indeed is Sick but it do bring some joy and happinese to it. im always bad in my heart.. whenever someone hurt my frenz..i just feel like telling that culprit "- look at the mirror, ur not lindsay lohan, ur not jolin tsai"!!to feel love is fortunate and why still quarrel occur to spoil the beautiful moment of the relationship.. dun understand!!

"Life need not be complicated… simple thing does make a person feel good"!!

bought my air ticket… and will be travelling to bangkok on oct for 4days 3 nite holiday.!! paid $310 for my air ticket including hotel… but now after think back, kinda expensive.i remember last year i paid only like $270 to hk and hk is definately more fun than bangkok. .Aniway im still planning for one more trip before i conclude this sickening "2005".. HONGKONG OR TAWIEN trip dec?? anione interested??

10/09/05

First time had japanese food buffet at suntec. nice atmosphere and nice food. charge at $32 per person hmm not really ex.. definately worth alot if ur a good eater/ snatcher. Watch the cave after that. nice and exciting show. but ending sucks. hmm this show is more suitable for guys to watch . grade 7.5/10

Aniway there’s  a new show coming soon — hmm hmm if im not wrong, title is–40 yr old virgin. i think is a nice show.. check it out.

13/09/05

Took an hour off early today and visited dentist again. Asked doctor why my teeth appear to have two colour {transparent white and pure white}and he replied " you must be seriously ill before at the age of two or below and that lead to unhealthy grow of teeth, nothing much can be helped now and just got to take care" kinda funny..went home ask mum and she replied " CHAEOz, that doctor anyhow anyhow say".. ha ha

i got to admit that eversince i start working in chemical industrial, my body defence mechanism had appear to give in to bacteria . everyday handle with all the ccccc compound( ccc refer to co, co2, ch4,c2h6…c6h12).. there are toxic dude…and i fear the most while working is handling no. 1 killer "BENZENE" .. somehow i still miss those days working as copz protecting peace and harmony of the sector… will write about my 2yrs experience as a cops when im free.. is full of excitment!!

Spent $380 for today dental visit.. EX RITE?? omgz