5h December 2007 - Marked the death of a 2nd generation warrior who fought against 2 x unbearable ill treatment in his body in exchanging for his freedom, the love with his family and his beloved friends. if is the cause of the chemical or if is the cause of his routine? …..Well i cant denied the facts -Your departure inspire me to even wanting to call it a quit next year !!
was bored.. and browsing thru …. … … …
AND I SAW…… THIS!!!… signz
life used to be simple….
as day passes and one grows older, it becomes more complicated.
it’s now reality.
when you finally met someone whom you want to be with,
you realised the person is just not the one for you.
two of you are too similar in character.
yes there are differences which may be good,
but yet these differences causes unhappiness.
problems got resolved but still surface the next moment.
it’s like a routine…. ever going on.
the feeling is so strong,
yearn to be with together but there are just too many barriers.
is it possible to overcome it?
i really want to know.
was browsing over the entires i keyed in the past…
came across
latest update!!
the one whom read my palm jus a yr ago.. had passed away on dec 2006!!
he suffered for 6 month.. before decided to give up on his life.
leaving behind a wife and 3 children..
life is vulnerable .
love is not to forget but to forgive , not to see but to understand , not to hear but to listen not to let go but to HOLD ON
Don’t ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you
like will leave you for the one they love
In life, we meet someone whom we really love but only 2 find out tat tis love was never meant 2 be ours… What we get in the end is hurt & our heart broken into a million pieces & there’s no way to put it back together again… As a result, we become a totally different person as we only 1 2 protect ourselves from any form of hurt… In the process, we hurt others w/o realising it… But the 1 who is being hurt the most is we ourselves…
Likewise, in life we often meet people who loves us but we juz can’t love them the same way, we try our best not 2 hurt them but end up inflicting more hurt… Y is it tat we can never meet someone who appreciates us juz as much as we appreciate them…
Wat causes a person 2 change??? Is it circumstances or the environment or is it they themselves who chose 2 change???
Why is it tat when things happen, people often say tat they do not know what they were doing & did not expect things 2 turn out tat way & tat they dunno what 2 do… It’s all bull shit… It’s only whether they reali 1 2 take up the responsibility & bear the consequences which follows…
Please think twice before u make any decision… U might only end up breaking someone’s heart…
In tis world, nobody is indispensable of anybody… Time will never stop neither will the world stop moving just becoz of me… 1 day when i disappear, nobody will realise or even bother…
Live life with memories not with regrets… Don’t wait till things happen & start saying all the "I should haves…"
Treasure the one who loves you! It’s not easy to find a person who loves you. It’s always more valuable to have a sincere heart.
The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. If you think something will make you happy, GO FOR IT. Remember that we pass this way only once
time flies..is being 1month plus everysince i last blog here…
KL trip may 2006
i was late on the first day… bus leaves at 6.30am sharp.. i assume they will be some delay therefore i purposely took my own sweet time prepare and leave home late.. when i reach there at like 6.40am, everybody was already there waiting for me to board the bus…kinda peiseh!!
had my breakfast over at malaysia. saw something AMAZING!!! normally in singapore, the biggest "BAo" i saw, should be the "DA bao".. but over at the johor, they had this "YE ZHI ME DA BAO"(obviously name after tat artist in the early 90s whereas got two big bust"). is indeed big.. somewhere the size of a" plate" size".
had my lunch over at one of the biggest country club at malacca before cont journey to kl. the club was such high class, but yet the food taste NORMAL!!
KL
stay over at boulvard hotel. is a brand new 4star hotel over at kl..rather class inside just that my room is short of bath tub if not it will be more wonderful… and ++ directly beside the hotel, there is this shopping where is 5km long!! shopped over at there but couldnt get anithing nice and the price isnt that cheap neither.. bought pizza from pizza hut for dinner.. a pan hawillian pizza cost me rm $8bucks.. omg thats so much big diff comparing sg…
kl day 2
woke up 6am to prepare and had my breakfast before procceding for my badminton tournament which starts at 10am
i won the single but lost the double..
single match 15-7 , 15-7
double match 15-3. 15-0
yeahz not so bad.. at least won a gold medal.!!
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met up tommy over at puturaya terminal and headed to sungei wang and time square for some shopping. the last time i being there was with "she" few yrs back. somehow as we walk , i remember evey scene and sight where we snap photo. didnt really get much things over at kl maybe due to the reason of looking out gift for "she" thats why..!! bought one zooyork tshirt. over at sg selling at 50++60 but i bought it for like 40. cheap by 20bucks.!!!!
headed to the night market which open only on fri, sat and sun. the place there is like bugis but just that they are so much more cramp compare over here. they sell all those imitate stuff.. from shoes to branded stuff.. yucky…
WE WITNESS CAR RACING over at kl and it attracted alot of crowds over at there .so we try to squeeze oursleve into the crowd to snap some pic and video clip.aniway those car on the road are those being modify..
something bad almost happen : we came to realise that we are the only bunch of chinese in the crowd . all our surrounding are either malay or indian… feeling something not right as we could sense that they are looking at us .. probably at our branded camera and phones.. we quicky move out of the crowd and headed towards a place where is safe.. lucky nothing happen!! by the time we reach our hotel is like almost 12midnight..!!
day 3 kl
took their private car (rm$50) to genting.. this is my first time been to casino. is such a sucking place. i cant imagaine me to be one of the addict to gambler there. upon calculating the possibibility of winning a game, i decided to stand aside instead and watch my frenz play. one of my frenz lost few hundred bucks while another of my frenz won 300bucks.!! came across one top come with those shining chips on it over at genting. i was asking the sales assistant if they sell the same design without chip as i would look more great without that.. she replied " no, the only was is to cut away". looking disappointed, i still bought that top for "she"…
day 4kl.
bus supposing to leave at 2.30pm but due to some communication break down , the bus arrived at 4.30pm..freaking hell.. and by the time i reaches sg is already 10.30 - 11pm.. totally tired like hell..!!
met up "she" and hand her the present.. and the very next day she msg me telling me that she had cut away the shining chip.. im like wow.. we think alike.. !!
"the best chance u have when u arise to the top is to give yrself up on loneliness
fear nothing and work hard.. life is phrase less than u think. what u learn and
much more than u think and what u have inside right from the begining. "
"bret hard"
At times , how i wish our life is being destine by god.. although is abit dull but at least to some extend we wouldnt encounter any obstacles in our life…
Everyone are born with diffrent prespective of life.. but yet something similiar is that.." we are fighting against stress"… yeahz mental stress!!! "is never an easy stuff to actually buck up our courage to stand up after repeatedly failure" - everyone knew that well… but how many ppl actually appreciate their effort and their heart at the end of the day..???
was chatting with one of my frenz cheng few days back . he was telling me that he know how to read fortunate stuff (ofcourse i dont believe on this sort of stuff)but somehow still i asked him read for me my career and r.ship since im down on luck.!!.and so he hold on my palm and start analysing …
He tell me..beng ar(he call me that cause i got long hair.. arghh) "wah yr luck look goods on both career and r.ship" .. and i reply "nAH DiSaGrEe!! im really v down on luck…look at my gloomy face..it tells u issnt it…??
than he look on my palm again… and mentioning to me….
nv confine my own capability…there is a long road ahead of me and if i resolved not to dwell about my past, i can achieve something great in my life( in term of career and r.ship)"…and so i refresh back.. am i dwelling on something?? conclusion " YA.. there is still something i had been holding and battling all this while.."
At times i really feel that im more comfortable chatting with friends rather than good friends over personal issue..(WEIRD)!! it seem that there is a barrier between us even though there are my good friend.. i just feel weird telling them over blah blah blah…!
out of 7 X 6days, i only went clubbing once.. (WEIRD)!! had been staying and slagging at home all this while on weekend… even on weekdays i sleep early too..~!! seem like im getting into healthy mindset path… !!
—still figuring "how do someone actually threw away their old toys over their new toys that found in toy’r'rus?? didnt they forget… those old toys bring back memories..and there are the one’s whom acc them during theirs younger days??
had been asking myself… if there is more to life or than day to day surviving??
met up my squadmate sim and had katong lasak at ah peng stall earlier on.
than i realise we had know each other for 4yrs.. time flies!!!
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on this particular date 4yrs back, i was enlisted to police academy to serve my ns. the first time i start notices sim was when we are queuing to bald our head. he was such a panic freak seem scare to be bald and keep allowing other ppl to shave their hair first !! never expect at the end of that 1/10 nite ict, he became my buddy……oh goshz
staying in pa was a memorial period i wouldnt ever forget. i make few wonderful friendz…
now ..we are living with diffrent prespective of life and to gather for a chit chat session is so much diff unlike last time, whereas after 5.30hrs we will start gather together to chilled… kinda miss those dayssss
Sometime.. do wish time could go in an anti clockwise direction.. ~! even though livng on little expenses from parent and goverment during those days, but im living in a care-free life whereas there is no stress and no regret.!! life is just so simple .. every week passes in a routine way…weekdays is all about training and weekend is all about me and she… oh shittyz….
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is been a hard long month…had some misunderstanding going on but thats not really of my concern as i had my prerogative to stayput being myself than acting to be myself….gioshz
now is all about bucking up…and main prioity to studies. yeahz…!!
